"A woman from women without fear could transform the world"

CLoSiNg iT

A new stage in my life and my friend's life is closing. We conclude that it will take a while for us to find a moment of stablishment as for our plans and the way our life decides to behave seems all blurry. Not that I'm complaining and I wouldn't say my friend is but it's really hard to just close windows and keep on living hidding all those emotions and thoughts. This way of living is very interesting and rich in many aspects but it is devastating to the soul as well and more when you are very passioned to people, feelings and situations.

"All Good Things (Come To An End)"

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

ToP 10 saTurdaY NigHt

10. PACO: "Ya se, nos quedamos en standby y en la casa ya encontramos un lugar"
Salud!
9. PANCHO: "No mames no van a llegar esos weyes le dijeron a mi mama"
Vino el malvibriento?? no pero por que wey??!!
8. ESAU: "No! Japo se queda, vamonos"
Perdon Japo hihi malentendido?
7. GERARDO: " No mames estas bien rica, te quiero cochar"
A huevo sin rodeos y seguimos bailando!
6. PACO: "Oye? no mames vino Japo hace rato?"
Haha justo dos segundos despues de que partiera.
5. CYN: "No mames haha creo que sigo peda"
Domingo en la mañana.
4. MEL: "No mames no huele a nada...y no sabe a nada"
Hihi un vaso de puro tequila?? ahhh kbron.
3. PACO: "...no mames esa agua me alcanza para dos o tres tragos mas! Pero a ti se te hizo como la montaña rusa no?"
Junkie precioso hehe de que hablas bombon?
2. JAPO: "Mi vieja se emputo por los hielos"
Ayyyy no mames, quien se enoja por unos putos hielos weyyyy.
1. TODOS: "Y antes que pase mas, tiempo contigo amor... Porque duele, duele tanto amarte asi"
Las rolas del recuerdo.

Lamentablemente este es un top 10 sin embargo si se hiciera un recuento de la noche jamas se acabaria de enlistar, entre borrachines, bailadores y uno que otro que decide inculcar nuevas tecnicas (ejemplo: raul y su nueva forma de dormir) se creo una muy agradable noche de copas por recordar.

See yOu LaTeR

Yesterday night and well this morning I said goodbye to some dearest friends. I didn't really have the chance to know them THAT well but the time I spent with them was more than enough to realize that these guys really rock. They come from the north of Mexico called Chihuahua actually the guys from the north have the reputation to be "machos" you know? and well they are sort of specialin their way of being it's like you never know what to expect from them like the way of acting or behaving but even if they are weird (hehe not reallly) I just love being with them. They are all musicians so that means that at some moment the time to play the guitars and sing came and it was wonderful but now they have to go back home to build a project hoping to come back around november. Of course very typical from me I really liked one of them, of course he has piercings, perfect nose, stylish hair, he plays the drums between other instruments and yesterday I found out he has tattoos!! But it is like this, people come and go and specially musicians you can never expect to find something serious unless you are involved in the same business hehe. Anyway, it was hard to know they are leaving but there is always hope to see them again and repeat the wonderful times we share. Gonna miss you boys!!!!

DeaReSt FrieNdS:

Everyday when I open my msn I'm always wishing to find each one of you to talk, know about you, tell you my things and remember experiences. Is like if my conection with Sweden is endless usually you go live in one place, visit another make some friends, sometimes talk to them and just keep on going with your life but somehow this time has been diferent. Many things change in life just by knowing you and it's incredible how in just one year or one semester of knowing each other we could create a really nice friendship with very honest feelings.
I have to tell you that all the words I receive from you make me fight every single day to be someone better and to see you again, specially refering to my babie rommmies and of course Jesper and Joakim. Reading in your blogs what you've written about me leaves me speachless and... well I really don't know how to express what do I feel everytime I read your words. We are always complaining about how life works but I have learned that life is full of surprises and I don't regret at all the hard times that have come to my life just to have as a reward meet you all and I can tell you now that no matter which direccion our paths take, I will always fight to keep this friendship we have built. I really love you all soooooo hard, tack så mycket forever and ever.

TaVo & LeTy

It's been years since we met cousin but it's unbelievable that you are going to be a father soon, I'm actually pretty excited about it hehe. Isn't it funny how you never expect someone to settle down or like you have an image of the pop star covered with girls, drinking, somking touching the limits!!!! But finally there is a moment for everybody to STOP and just calm down. That's why I always recomend to do and destroy everything while you can!!! Of course being careful of getting into the bottom because there it's really hard to recover.
Congratulations for the twins that are coming!!! Luv ya always...

Chris Cornell-You Know My Name

If you take a life, do you know what you'll give
Odds are you won't like what it is

When the storm arrives
Would you be seen with me
By the merciless eyes of deceit

I've seen angels fall from blinding heights
But you yourself are nothing so divine
Just next in line

(Chorus)

Arm yourself because no one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you

You can't deny the prize, it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die

The coldness burns through my veins
You know my name

If you come inside
Things will not be the same
When you return to my eyes

And if you think you've won
You never saw me change
The game that we have been playing

I've seen this diamond cut through harder men
Than you yourself, but if you must pretend
You may meet your end

(Chorus)

Try to hide your hand
Forget how to feel
(forget how to feel)

Life is gone, with just a spin of the wheel
(Spin of the wheel)

(Chorus)

KeeP On WaLkiNg

My dearest friends:
How are you all?!! I am ok. I have to confess that this last month was really hard for me and I really don't expect this one to be much better but I will try to be positive. Since I arrive to my country I have faced a lot of emotions and situations that came into my life, unfortunately not all of them good ones. It's like life is trying to make me stronger with all the bounderies I have but suddenly you find yourself completely low, I have been holding my tears all this month to overcome the hard times taking the strength I don't know from where. Sometimes I wonder if it is true that you pay all the harm that you've done but the thing is that sometimes you don't mean to hurt people so how does it work??!! Anyways I really don't want to look like a victim but just to take all this as a lesson I mean it would be really unfair if I was paying for things I didn't mean to do right? Haha like I don't even understand myself now but what I actually wanted to say with this is that I learn that there is nothing more important than friendship and my friends in here have been by my side all the time, no matter what, ones know more than others what is going on but I wouldn't have seen the light by the end of the tunnel if it wasn't for them. I wish things were other way, I wish I was still in Sweden without any worries but life is like this right? So to all of you that I consider my friends I send you all my love and please know that I will always be here for you.

CyN - Jamas lo estaria logrando si no fuera por ti, neta no words wey. Keep spinning around enjoying the smell of the woods and the water falling over you face" Las cosas mas simples de la vida son por las que vale la pena vivir...y amigas como tu.

The 4 ChiCkS

Ser o parecer quien te imaginas
No me puede hacer la dueña de tu vida
Si no me miras, baby...
Mucho ya intenté por levantar la voz
Por despertar el interés vacío

Que te haga mío, baby...
Y sé que tal vez ese día
Nunca me sucederá...

Pero tú en mis sueños siempre has de estar
Como una luz que me ilumina
Y al despertar quiero volverlo a intentar

Yo...

Sé que el corazón late más fuerte, más que un motor
Y aunque no sabes nada de mí
Un día te habré de alcanzar, amor.

Las quiero pedorrillas!!!

What's up!

"Abre, abre grande..."

"Andale Lola, esque yo te amo"

"Si tan solo supieran wey, TODO LO QUE HEMOS HECHO"

"A ver, que andas balbuceando k'bron?!"

"Y antes que pase mas tiempo contigo amor, tengo que decir que eres el amor de mi vida..."

Getting ready for the big ones, meanwhile tooootally enjoy the season and the "hot" guys hihi.

FaDe AwaY

Have you ever stop to think, how are you living your life? Life come and goes so fast that in a blink everything that you thought it was for real suddenly disappears. I have no words to express how I feel, how much I will miss you, how much I learned from you. Your memory will remain forever and I will keep you in my heart. To all my family, be strong and know that somehow life goes on...

"...Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If I only had one more day (fade away, fade away, fade away, ahhah)..."

TäNkeR meD CyN

...remember that day? exactly one year ago!!. What a pic...

Yesterday night while I was getting ready to go out Cyn got online, as always it's great to find one of the memebers of "Rebelde" online hehe. We were talking about some normal stuff when suddenly she said: "we need to talk, I've been thinking about how everything goes away from my life" which made me think that I totally feel the same. Then it became a conversation of how we manage the things and people that come and go into our lives and that's reality, we get bored really fast of boys, we have friends and suddenly life takes them away from us, we finally feel good in one place and we need to leave!
So it is hard for us to accept why does everything move this way but finally we truly believe that things happen for a reason and we are getting ready for something bigger. This doesn't mean that we will forget all the people that have crossed our lives but we think they come and go because we have to learn form them and they from us and it hurts to be taken away from who we love. But at the same time this makes us stronger and one day we'll find out why is this happening. As I wrote the other day about my feelings leaving Sweden and how I think fate works for me I believe it takes me exactly to this point but now it feels better to know one of my best friends feel the same.
We like to live everything with a lot of passion without thinking of how long it will last and we think that if we succede on sharing this way of living to the ones we meet in our way then we can keep all the feelings and emotions inside us to have the strenght to keep on walking. Luv ya cyn...

SoOneR oR LaTeR

This morning i woke up feeling a huge hole in my stomach. Its hard to think that there are only 2 weeks left until i go to Mexico and one week for my family to come. I can't even think about waking up in my bed in Mexico, looking around me and don't find my youngest roommate sleeping in my couch or waking me up around 8 o'clock because she can't sleep anymore or stay up until 4 in the morning because either Susanne, Emma or Terhi have something to tell me or talk about or only staying awake laughing about stupid things that happen in the house.
Living in Sweden has been one of the best experiences of my life, I grew up very much in many aspects opening my eyes to how the world work in a rich country like this. The contrast between the swedes and mexicans was a real shock just to understand the way they see the world from their point of view and accept it making my dreams and plans stronger.
This week I need to start packing all my stuff, split what stays and what i take with me, not easy at all but it feels like somebody is holding my hands and not letting me do anything about it and what is holding me is my university in Mexico. Yes! i have to go back and finish otherwise i wouldn't be writing this and instead i would be planning where to get drunk in Christmas and New Year but unfortunately life wanted it this way. I accept my destiny and i know sometimes is hard to understand why does life act this way but i know that its always for something better and i totally know i'm coming back so i just have to wait.
For all the people i met during this year, my friends I want to thankyou for everything you've made of me. I leave Sweden with many experiences, feelings and 10 kilos more (hehe sad but true). I'll keep you in my heart and best memories FOREVER hopping to see you again soon either here or in Mexico!
LOS AMO DURISIMO!!!!

SweeT!!

This morning was really hard to get up, 5 o'clock!! like it's not fun at all. Once i turn on my computer everything changed, destiny you know? after a couple of months i finally coincide with my two best friends in msn. Oh boy how i miss those girls!! hehe, as always something new to tell but finally things never change I mean Ana Sofia totally drunk and pucking the other day in a very famous familiar restaurant in the center of Mexico! and Cyn totally wasted as well with your peculiar crew hehehe. Seriously girls almost one year and things still the same??!!!
It was great talking to them, they remind me what is was to be home, even though i totally don't want to go back but on the other side it felt confortable I can't tell I'm looking forward to it but it's ok. It was also amaizing how even if time passes they still know me at all by just making some comments they knew exactly what is going on in my head and in my heart, that's real friendship. I love you girls for ever and ever and ever (like i feel so lesbo right now hehehe bitchhhh, pussyyy see you soon!!!)

EveRyThiNg iN TiMe

Everything always in time will come

Is it wrong holding on
To my best friend my faded lover?
Who knows?

Coincidence or fate
Running towards what is meant to be

SAVE ME

Everything always in time will show
Then we will know, it will show
Everthing always in time will come
And I believe for everything there is a reason
And everything always in time will...

Everything I do
Everything is you

RighT heRe, RighT NoW

Life has its funny ways to cross people's rodes. This works in different ways, meeting someone for just a moment, days, months or even years but finally it comes and go. It's less than two months what I have left here in Sweden, and even if its still a "long" time in here I have been reflecting about all the learnings i have had this year. The experiences that have fullfill my expectations of life and the people that have come into my life just being themselves, being so real that it's hard to explain my affection to them.
I've been flattered by some sayings about me and betrayed by some others but finally what I keep in my heart are the things that come from the ones I consider my friends the ones i truly love and these people, no matter how far or close I am from them, will be in heart and in my thoughts forever.
And even if forever seems to be too long I truly believe that love is the only thing that can reach that "foreverness" for the rest of what life conserns... It's just a stolen season.

The aNsWeR

This weekend was full of reflexions combined with adventures. I had the chance to take with a friend 48 international students to Stockholm. It was really fun and I guess they had a good time as well. It happened to me a great thing which was to meet my sister on saturday with one of her babies, we went to have a nice chocolate and we chat per hours! After everything we talk about I just want to tell her that yes! i do believe it and i'll keep it real. And this is for her:

"I will have poetry in my life. And adventure. And love. Love above all. No... not the artful postures of love, not playful and poetical games of love for the amusement of an evening, but love that... over-throws life. Unbiddable, ungovernable - like a riot in the heart, and nothing to be done, come ruin or rapture. Love - like there has never been in a play..."

P.S. sorry for the ones who are reading this and of course don't understand it, i'm not weird i promise ;)

OnlY in SweDeN

Like you are not going to believe what happened to me today. Las friday I went with Dytte to have lunch, well it was great but that's another story hehe. The thing is i brought my bike to school and we decided to go to Claras and afterwards to take a walk so I left my bike there that night and saturday's night and tonight (sunday) I was suppose to go to a friend's house by bike and I realized i didn't have my bike. So I went with one of my roommates to school to get it and my surprise was to find it with another lock.
My first reaction was like "Well, I guess somebody else is owning my bike now" but it wasn't that what happened. While continue wondering what was going on i found in the seat a pice of paper pasted with tape so I took it, opened it and found a message in swedish, luckyly my swedish roommate was with me and it said the following: " Förlåt för att vi tog din cykel. Vi har inte skadat något på den. Nyckel till låset sitter fast under sadeln." This message was written in a computer and printed out!!! I of course found the keys for the lock and my bike was in perfect conditions.
Now, how can this be true?, It's like the sweetest story ever! I'm just trying to imagine who took it and afterwards took the time to print the message and leave my bike for me again!! Only in Sweden I guess, but if somehow the responsable for this reads this, THANKYOU I really mean it, thanks for being that kind.

IT future

Technology makes us really really lazy, I mean just take a look at the compu-nerds they don't even have to move from their chair and they are creating things to make life easier. All this things about technology are good somehow, it's not that I'm against that but it's just too material!
I'm really lazy I wish I would have a robot to cook for me and wash my clothes, clean my room, etc. But at the same time it's really anoying how some people are really into all this things full of buttons. Like having a mobile that has too many things on it!! maybe it's really confortable to have internet, camera, mp3, palm and oh! you can talk with it as well, but then you have to really know how to use everything right and for me I don't think that could work that easy.
A very bad thing is the invation of privacy!! like everybody has a camera in their mobiles and wherever you can imagine, I really don't want to imagine myself in a party where I'm having a few drinks, you know with my friends, taking it easy and suddenly seeing my picture on the internet!! that is horrible! or as we saw in class the way to google the keys of your car, what is that??!!
I expect the people to continue being people and not robots, and that all this technology does not continue afecting us in a human way, I believe all this technology just make people want to consume more and more leaving aside the really important things from life.